Thanks for sharing about glycerine spray! Awesome!
I remember when I was taking antidepressant medication that it did that to my mouth also, I also found that I couldnt get to sleep properly anymore, thus I went off it. I LIKE my sleep! I was NOT going to go on another medication to counter the side-effect of the first!
This was all before I heard about ADD. I think it has alot to do with the way I am. I still have to be professionally diagnosed though.
We have to weigh the pros with the cons. How are you doing without the antidepressant? When did you begin thinking you have ADD?
I haven't been on antidepressants for, oh heck, YEARS now. I was diagnosed with post-natal depression when my first son was 6 months old. Before that I was always living life at a million miles an hour! I remember my ex saying to me when we were dating "man if you every get pregnant, you are gonna shoot that kid out fast, cause you live at a speed of....a million miles an hour". I at the time had NO idea what he was talking about, I didnt notice anything else different about me? Funny really looking back, cause I did shoot my kids out fast (first labour = 4 hours start to fin and the second = 1 1/2 start to finish).
I was thus FORCED to slow down. Then my (uh what word can I use) harrasing, insane, consitantly rambling thoughts/brain did me in. I, shortly put, went round the bend. I felt trapped, caged in, hemmed in by the walls of the house. I started to draw depressive prison-like sketches that reflected the way I felt. Chores piled up, things didnt get done, I slept all the time with baby. Yadda yadda and all that ....went to the doctor and the doctor said haha blah blah blah (sorry I'm going through a stint of immense frustration and edgeness at the mo).
OK (back on track) so went to councilling, thought I could do the will-power thing with it, cause I thought at the time it was a weakness of character thing. Had to eat humble pie, and go on anti-depressants. Thought I am not happy with this, why am I like this, why am I getting like this? Started searching, researching, learning. Found out about using it to learn from, and that past happening can have caused this. Did some intense sessions on healing/forgiveness.
Now my children have school struggles. My youngest is my biggest concern of the two. He is reliving my school years to the T! I can't believe it! I realise why it went so pear shaped for me, in school now! However I was a girl (quiet daydreamer), and he is a boy, and he has the extra troubles of aggressive outbursts, lashing out at times, intense emotions that he can't get control of. It physically hurts (soul deep) as a parent to see your child hurting so much! And all they see is a naughty boy, who disrupts the class, and is thus sent out. THAT'S NOT WHO HE IS!!! He has such immense love and thoughtfulness and he cares so deeply.
So I am going through stress at the moment, with finding solutions that work for him (so feel confused and lost about this). As well as taking on extra responsibilty through a childs organisation. Especially as I know fully well what I am like with projects (so many half completed ones here it isn't funny)
So tomorrow I go to my first doctors appointment to get myself hopefully on the path to being diagnosed. I am sick of the way I am! My house has grown more and more disorganised as the years go on, I cant seem to get rid of anything, motivation problems out the wa-zoo!! I want to do this and that but I can't seem to get the steam to start. Ask me what I did yesterday? Ummmmm hang on let me just THINK about that ummmmm (URGH). I can loose something 2 seconds after wandering off distracted by something else and swear blue bloody murder that was where I had placed it down but its not there!
I feel completely different towards myself now from when I had depression. Back then I just felt hopeless and worthless and had bad feelings about ending it then. Now I'm just intensely frustrated at myself. I WANT to COMPLETE things! My housework, my projects, my paperwork! PROCRASTINATION be GONE!!!! Although I WILL pat myself on the back about making a phone call this morning that I have been putting off for a while. I was surprised how exhausted I felt afterwards (seriously?! I thought to myself - urgh! lol)
I started learning about it when a pediatrician said the ADHD words to me with regards to my boys......