As a child my biggest problems were as follows: Attention deficit/Hyperactivity disorder, Developmental dyspraxia,& the social issues that came with ADHD(e.g. being bullied by other boys, being thought of as awkward by girls,etc.) it was a great childhood minus the family dysfunction.lol
As a teenager I become incredibly shy, isolated & lonely.I developed skin problems(mainly Acne & Seb derm) & finally at 16 dropped out of high school(due mostly to all of the aforementioned problems).
Now at less than 4 weeks from age 25 I'm still(lonely, have become reclusive) & still all the original health problems remain( ADHD,Dyspraxia & minor skin issues) in addition to Social Anxiety disorder, Generalized Anxiety disorder & Idiopathic Sensorimotor Polyneuropathy.It's breaking my heart & spirit breaking me in two. Every since the age of 5 I just wanted to fit in with anyone at all.By the 7 or 8 all I could think of was females. Now even if a woman gave me a shot.In all honesty I don't know what I'd have to offer to anyone woman(even one with two or three of my conditions.)
I cannot imagine what you have been through, but I do know what it's like to have the multiple diagnosis. I have ADHD (which I just found out about in August), bipolar, epilepsy, and I formally had an eating disorder. Growing up I did not have the social issues that you talk about, but I always had an issue keeping any close friends. I still have that problem now.
It took me a while, but I finally found my husband, and he excepts me, illnesses and all. It takes a special person to do that. Maybe you just haven't found that special person yet. I do know this, though. You have to keep your chin up. Be positive. Love yourself so that others may love you. Accept yourself for who you are and embrace it.
it sounds like you are really overloaded with multiple problems but then you are burdened with the consequences of those problems too- like self image, shame, etc. i hope you are getting or will get some therapy/counseling for those, especially from someone who really understands ADD/ADHD.
Hi. Be positive.
May be colour filters in your spectacles may help you a bit in conjunction with the meds and coping strategies you are working with. In my study so far, I have found that colour filters in spectacles ,when the right combination has been found,helps the adhd ,the education, you yourself are a lot calmer because the world seems to calm down . The Dyspraxia might benefit from it too. Are there Optical centres or Glasses doctor that you can go to and make enquiries? about colour filters.
You may find that it may just be the positive effect required for a cool dude like yourself.