Just venting- in need of prayer

[Melissa Raines]

Got word today via text message from my sister in law that a couple that went to our church is now expecting their first baby , yet Jeremy & I have been trying for over a yr & have yet to have any luck . I do not understand what are we doing wrong?!! everyone arround us is either pregnant or has had a baby , I feel as tho ever since I gave my son up that I am cursed ( i know that sounds crazy but it's how I feel) I'm also starting to think that the reason why we have yet to conceive is because Jeremy & I aren't properly married in god's eyes, I feel as tho god is punishing me for giving William up so there for he views me as this bad mother who has blown her chance of having any more childran . I just feel as tho I am being punished now for all the mystakes I made with William . When I recieved this text message I started to cry , Jeremy told me not to cry that maybe god feels that it's not our time yet but that we'll keep trying , that we still got 13 days late until my " O" date that the month is not over yet , he told that he has planns to get me a dog once I got pregnant so that the dog will be trained and grown by the time the baby comes, but that if i'm not pregnant by Dec that he'll get me the dog then , that I won't have to wait until my birthday in January.

I'm sorry I don't mean to rant but I can't help the way I feel!!! Jeremy and I are stable , we have a stable home with plenty of room , we have money ( even tho we aren't completely rich) but we have money so we don't have to worry , we both have insurence so we don't have to worry about that. We waited for so long to have a baby of our own but now it's just not happening. My Gyno has ran every test imaginible and there's nothing wrong with me, Jeremy has been ruled out , because we've been pregnant before ( which was in the first 3 yrs we were together but sadly that ended in a miscarriage) we just do not understand what we are doing wrong!!!

[sherry mulberry]

Hello Mellisa I'm so sorry about your frustration . I just wanted to ask if you got checked for edometriosis? I had that after I had my first child I had to be on some strong medicine for three monthes. and It took about a year after that I got pregnant again. You need a dianostic laproscope done . That is the only way it will show up. It won't show up in sauna grams or x-rays . I just wanted to let you know because alot of women have it and not know it. It is the outer part of your uterus comming off and going on parts of your body. It is pretty painful and your monthly is aweful. well I just hope I could help in some way .I got pregnant the first time with the ovilation thermomter, your tempature goes up when you ovelate. I had good luck with both so I hope some of these things can help you guys. take care . and let me know how things go. I will be praying for you . take care

[sharon]

oh Melissa!
Just be patient, in His Time, in His Time.
Things happen unexpectedly all the time, in the best time we don't think of.
I find that when I pray, and leave the rest to God, and then just not focus on the issue, do other things.
Then all the sudden things always happen, in a better time than I wished for.

[Brenda]

Melissa, do not not focus on the problem. Focus on God. Please do not stress out by negative thinking.

Ps. 37:3-5 Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily, thou shalt be fed. Delight thyself also in the Lord; and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass.

Read the Word and stabilize yourself in it. Let God be number one in every part of your life. Jeremy the same. God knows every area of your life, before, during and after. TRUST HIM! Do your best and let God do the rest. You and Jeremy are in my prayers. Keep in touch!