"Confusion will be my epitaph. As I crawl a cracked and broken path.. If we make it we can all sit back and laugh." -- King Crimson, Epitaph

I’ve been feeling trapped like a caged animal, pacing back and forth, anxious to get out but can’t. Even when I do get out, it doesn’t seem to be enough. It’s called Akathisia. It’s a listed side effect for Abilify. According to my medical dictionary, it’s a movement disorder characterized by a feeling of inner restlessness and a compelling need to be in constant motion. It’s even more annoying than the restlessness that I feel from having ADHD. I have stopped taking my Abilify for two weeks. I’… Continue

I can’t take it anymore. I know this is going to sound strange, but I can’t take sleeping in any more. I decided to take my Chromium again, but instead of taking a 600mcg dose, I’ve cut it in half. I started it back up today. I’m going to go for a week on 300mcg of Chromium and see how it turns out. I’ll let everyone know how it goes. As a reminder, if anyone decides to take Chromium, please check with your doctor first, especially if you are a diabetic.

I promised an update, so here it is.

It’s been almost 4 days since I last took my Chromium. I’ve had some stressful situations decide to rear their ugly heads in my direction lately. Despite that, I’ve still felt motivated, just ran out of energy easily and slept longer.

I seem to remember back 10 years or so, when I was racing mtn. bikes, I took Chromium on a regular basis, either in pill form or in my sports drink. The Chromium helped balance out my fluctuating energy levels. Probably what I… Continue

I’ve been wondering lately, why this increase in motivation. What medicine is causing me to feel extremely driven. Is it the Abilify that I’m on now? Is it the Chromium or Fish Oil that I’ve been taking in the morning? I don’t know. So in the interest of science, I’m going to do a test that is going to last for 4 weeks. Starting on Monday, June 15th, I’m going to stop taking my Chromium, for 2 weeks. I’m going to report how I feel during this whole event. On Monday, June 29th, I’m going to stop… Continue

I realize that I haven’t been around much for a while. Things have been a little crazy. As I’m sitting here writing this, I realize that I let things get a little out of hand. I didn’t exactly ask for help when I needed it the most. The semester that I was working on at college didn’t turn out the way that I planned. I ended up bombing badly. I think the thing that threw me the most was how quickly I lost my motivation. I didn’t exactly see it coming. Once the motivation started leaking profusel… Continue