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... a nerd when you use a paperclip instead of a barette to pin up your hair.

... ADD when you find a random paperclip where your barettes are SUPPOSED to be!



sigh....

how come every time i sit down to do work at the computer, i can't remember what i was supposed to do? :) (darned social networks! blogs! and fun websites!)

in any case, this holiday season seems to be going better... depression isn't kicking me in the arse as it has many times in the past several years. it helps tremendously that daughter and hubby now surprise me by having the tree up and decorated when i go out. it feels less lonesome, and i can let go of some control issues. lol. the… Continue

can i be in the same room as an irrational, unpredictable, emotionally volatile man? i just love stepping into minefields. i relish it actually! no-win situations are my absolute favorite!!! didn't you know??


sigh.... new mantra: i will survive the holidays.... i will survive the holidays.... i will survive the holidays.... i will survive the holidays....


:(

interesting how one can relate to this guy's drawings (opens to exploding.com "when did i change my mind?") in a very profound way... (or is it just me?)

... i had to rethink that title. it originally looked like i might offer or think up one every day--ha! as if!

anyhow, here it is: just do it!

one of the things i noticed that doesn't help procrastination is the thinking part... i start planning in my head--no-- doing in my head, because i'm a visual thinker, and just even exerting that energy is draining enough to make me want to lie down. sometimes i could expend more energy just thinking about what i want or need to do than i… Continue

whoever thought of these gets my everlasting gratitude...

paying bills and going through a dreaded pile of one month's worth of mail. i guess i can be positive it's not THREE months worth ! as has been in the past. progress! yeah! and so far, i've seemed to have conquered laundry for the past 2 months. (can she keep it up?)

i'll be performing a modern dance piece this fall. what started as beautiful abstract movement set to strauss' "voices of spring", is becoming beautiful abstract movement with a comedic flair. oh, we're having so much fun. anyhow, there's one part that the choreographer is developing where i change movement from one focus to a completely incongruent focus, my face deadpan through it all. the first time we tried it, my dance partner cracked up into a belly laugh. "talk about ADD! right? that's TO… Continue

... growing up, i never did get all the hype about coffee, and the gotta-have-caffeine thing. first, it tasted awful, and second, it made me sleepy! people! i thought, wha?! where's the magic in this? gack! you must all be on a different planet or something (har har) 'cause i ain't feelin it! now.... sitting with a couple of friends one day, one who has similar energy patterns to me, and the other "normal", we talked about our typical afternoon "crash" time--where the body w… Continue

i think i took an extra "booster" yesterday afternoon, thinking i had not all ready taken one--or not remembering it at least. i was feeling extra..... feisty? shall i say? sigh... i once screwed up and took my morning meds at nighttime--which means i took concerta right before bedtime! holy crap! what a mess that (i) turned out to be! up all night, then extremely off kilter the next day. i've tried the weekly pill boxes, but , characteristically, that was hard to keep up... maybe i should get o… Continue